2022 GOALS & Ambitions...



It's been a while since I released thoughts from my soul and today is one of those days, I must release my soul. A week or so ago I attempted to drive to Florida to see a friend and visit my grandmothers grave. It's unfortunate that none of the above were accomplished due to winter storms and my back was NOT holding up past New Jersey, so I turned around and came home. I was able to see my daughter and two of my grandchildren. My daughter seems to think it wasn't a big thing not to have my grandson around when I came to visit. Nor did he rush home when she asked him to come home. This generation seems to be so disrespectful and selfish like you owe them something. I have a new attitude going forward and that is go do me first. Over the years I have provided unconditionally to my children perhaps it was to make up for no father in the house. Either way from the eldest to the youngest they are selfish they don't seem to appreciate the sacrifice I made for them.

Times are changing and I keep informing my children I won't be in New York much longer but they tend to think I'm joking. As my youngest grows closer to that graduation date I grow closer to getting my money right for my dream boat in the U.S.V.I.

This year it is my goal to get my business off the ground with my art and securing a consistent income. Lord knows I am exhausted with ride sharing, folks don't appreciate my time and seem to think that my car is their refuge to tell me their problems. I feel like I am stuck in a rut living in Rochester from the opportunities to the people both have taken their toll on me.

Last year a woman did offer me artist space in exchange I will assist her with advertising. I have so much mistrust from being burnt by so many locals I am trying to keep a positive outlook; between keeping my personal goals of fitness and being proactive about my sailing channel. In the new year am challenging myself to continue my dream in multimedia. My goal is to share informative stories that both educational and productive. My biggest challenge is to develop a schedule that I can stick with and not allowing distractions to take me off the path to my success. I can do it but it will take discipline and hard work. One thing I have learned is that anything worth obtaining will be a challenge because if it was easy everybody would be a success...


GOALS

1. Finish my film "Rochesta"

2. Screen "Rochesta"

3. Sell/Rent films on my website

4. Sell merchandise (hoodies and tote bags) for film

5. Sailing Yemaya channel (weekly show)

6. Develop a logo for Yemaya

7. Sell Yemaya merchandise (hoodies, water bottles, tote bags)

8. Get over 10,000 subscribers this year on youtube

9. Sustain an average income of over 5k a month

10. Develop a work, personal, creative schedule that works


My goals are pretty simple and not too complex, because I want to be able to sustain them. If I reach for more than this I probably won't achieve them.

The first of 2022 started off really well I spent the evening with Erv and Erin then went to bed.


The next week I drove to Manhattan and stayed with my brutha from another mother, Duck. I went to see my daughter who is really depressed and I could tell by the way the house was kept. I explained to her how concerned I am about my grandson running around the Bronx she seems to think I was being over protective. If my daughter watched some of her local news she would understand my sentiments about my grandson's safety. I know I can't focus on that right now because it's not my immediate problem so I must keep that filed away for another time. Never really thought being a grandma would be so exhausting, but it is when you can't do anything and you see the writing on the wall. It's like I am trying to warn my daughter a storm is coming and she is replying there is no storm, it's all in your head is what she says. Me having three Suns and leaving NYC for them, I guess she thinks I don't know what I'm speaking about. I sacrificed my own happiness for the safety of my children. I didn't want anything happening to my boys, Lord knows that is why I left New York City I wouldn't been able to deal with that heaviness on my heart. I know for a fact that was the reason I allowed my eldest Sun to go live with his father when he was 9 years old. Though I loathed letting him go to live with his fathers side of the family, because deep down inside I knew they would bad mouth me I just didn't want him to be a statistic. In every parents life we come to a crossroads to choose our children happiness over our own. I have sacrificed for my children and to be honest I would do it again. My body can't take the abuse of working long hours anymore but I can take the time to spend with them when time is allocated in my schedule. I miss my eldest Sun and look forward to seeing him this year in Charlotte, it's been a few years and my heart aches to see him physically and hug him. I really didn't want to fly but it may not be an option; if Erv doesn't come with me. I look forward to this new year with its challenges and may the power of Yemaya be with me. My goal is to make sure I blog at least once a week. Thanks for listening have a positive day and may the Creator guide your steps to success you have outlined for your upcoming year of 2022.


Blessingz and more blessingz ...




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